Letter to Jesus.

 Dear Jesus,

I am writing this letter to you because I know you will pass it on to my beloved wife Claudia. As you know, Claudia passed from our presence among her loved ones last September 1st, 2011.
We all wept for the loss of our beloved Claudia, but at the same time we gave thanks to you and your Father, Jesus, because now Claudia is by your side in Heaven, free of pain, and able to run and dance, and swim and play. None of which she was ever able to do here on earth.

Claudia came into my life and gave me unconditional love. She brought music, artistry, wonder, and life in the form of our beautiful daughter Elizabeth. She adopted my first four daughters, though it wasn't easy, and taught them a multitude of life's lessons in cooking, canning, housekeeping, and just being good people.

Life was never easy for Claudia. Just doing the ordinary things we all take for granted was like running a 20 mile marathon for Claudia, everyday. What nobody realized for dozens of years was that polio killed two-third of the nerves in her body, and she was forced to push the remaining third of her nerves, which caused them to be overworked and thus were worn out. And yet as a type A personality she kept pushing, and pushing, and as she did so she kept getting weaker and weaker, until one day in February of 2011 she went into a coma. She came out of the coma after about a week and only her right arm would work. The rest of her body was paralyzed. Claudia could no longer feed herself, use the bathroom, or take a bath. She hated having to be waited upon, she felt it was degrading. I just wish I had been able to care for her at home but I was physically unable to do so.

This was the beginning of the end, because she went into 2 more comas before passing unto you on September 1st, 2011, the same day that I left the hospital after major heart surgery.

I believe that she knows how much I miss her, because I can feel her beside me as I keep plodding along. I am keeping in touch with family both close and extended, I cook, clean, laundry, read, watch tv, taxi, and just generally try to fill my days with things to do.  I attend a wonderful Church and maintain contact with friends.

I really miss Claudia, especially on special days like her birthday, our anniversary, mother's day, and many other holidays. Claudia was a wonderful mother, amazing lover, a close friend, and lovely to cuddle with. I cry for my loss and one day in God's good time, I will join her by Gods side.

Thank you God for the wonder she provided.


Amen.
Victor Winebrenner.

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