MOTIVATION: HOW DO YOU MAKE IT HAPPEN?

Motivation, how do you make it happen?

I ask this question because of the series of incidents that have taken place during the last 9 to 10 months. If you have been reading my journal, you know that I had to place my wife Claudia into hospice care in a nursing home as I could no longer take proper care of her. Then we find out that we had to go through a series of transfers of Claudia from one nursing home to another, each of which wound up further and further from home.
During all of this our daughter Elizabeth has been a real trooper in dealing with nursing homes, social security, medicaid, and medicare. When she was finally brought to rest at Signature Healthcare of Marietta, her care was stabilized to a certain degree.

In the meantime I had to abandon our home and move to the renting of a downstairs apartment in a private home all the way from the south side of Atlanta to the north side of Atlanta. If you don't think that wasn't traumatic, think again. In between all of this my 17 year old minivan's transmission crapped out, so I was without transport for almost two weeks while the transmission was overhauled.

You may wonder why I didn't junk the car and get another one, well it's simple, I don't have the money nor do I have any credit, so I have to keep what I have operational. Now that Claudia has passed away, God Rest Her Soul, I am keeping busy by going to Cardiac exercise classes at Kennestone Hospital, and I take my grandchildren to tae kwon do classes three times a week.

Getting back to motivation, how do you get your mojo back? After spending about 10 years spending most of my time caring for Claudia combined with my serious heart condition, I wasn't able to do much else except read, watch tv, dabble in making wooden toys, maintaining the house and car, cook and do light housework. I tried doing yard work but I couldn't manage it anymore.

Getting back to my question, "How do I get my mojo back?" I guess I am still looking for an answer to that question. I had seen and heard that when a person loses their loved one, it can cause a person to lose interest in continuing to live their life; I can truthfully say it is true.

At this time I still don't have an answer, but I am continuing to work on what to do.

God Bless us all.

gahillbilly

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