Analyzing my wife's passing and it's affect on my heart.
I know, that is a mouth full. You have to be wondering what I am talking about?
Well, I'll tell you; this month of "December" is especially hard on me, even though it has been 4 years since Claudia passed on. I am feeling very depressed.
As a side note my daughter is also having similar depression issues. In her case I'm fairly sure it is a combination of job pressures, her children now entering their teens, some serious health issues, and the fact that this is Claudia's favorite Holiday period.
As a side note my daughter is also having similar depression issues. In her case I'm fairly sure it is a combination of job pressures, her children now entering their teens, some serious health issues, and the fact that this is Claudia's favorite Holiday period.
In my case, I have been doing everything I can to remain upbeat, positive, and outgoing, for the last 4 years. I have always been a believer in God, and have attended and taken part in conducting the business of the Church I attend. So as part of my therapy I have been going to the Town Center Community Church in Kennesaw. I have also been attending the Monday night Men's Bible Study Class. Both of these activities have been a help to me.
Further, I also pray to God each morning and evening, thanking him for allowing me to continue living here on earth. I don't talk about it very often, but I have had three near death episodes. In each one God said to me, "Vic you aren't finished doing what you need to do on earth, so back you go." My first episode occurred when I was only 19 years old. I have to tell you that I have had many, many close calls in my life both in and out of the military. In fact my second episode occurred when I was about 38 years old, and the last one when I was 62 years old.
The next question you might ask is; What is it I'm supposed to be doing right now. Well! I can tell you I don't really know. But I'm sure I will find out at some point in time.
Of Late! I have been trying to figure out how to meet eligible women that I could possibly date. I'm not sure about marrying anybody right now, but I could sure use a female companion to help open and keep my heart expanded. I have looked around at church at the women there but am not having any luck at all. I don't visit bars, so that doesn't count. I have looked into joining an online meet and match website, but the cost gets to be rather much.
I guess the question remains, how do I find and meet a nice lady that I could maybe date? Of course it would be nice if she was a rich widow.
That is the big question.
"(C) Copyright by Victor Winebrenner"
Further, I also pray to God each morning and evening, thanking him for allowing me to continue living here on earth. I don't talk about it very often, but I have had three near death episodes. In each one God said to me, "Vic you aren't finished doing what you need to do on earth, so back you go." My first episode occurred when I was only 19 years old. I have to tell you that I have had many, many close calls in my life both in and out of the military. In fact my second episode occurred when I was about 38 years old, and the last one when I was 62 years old.
The next question you might ask is; What is it I'm supposed to be doing right now. Well! I can tell you I don't really know. But I'm sure I will find out at some point in time.
Of Late! I have been trying to figure out how to meet eligible women that I could possibly date. I'm not sure about marrying anybody right now, but I could sure use a female companion to help open and keep my heart expanded. I have looked around at church at the women there but am not having any luck at all. I don't visit bars, so that doesn't count. I have looked into joining an online meet and match website, but the cost gets to be rather much.
I guess the question remains, how do I find and meet a nice lady that I could maybe date? Of course it would be nice if she was a rich widow.
That is the big question.
"(C) Copyright by Victor Winebrenner"
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